Sunday, November 12, 2006
HAPPY, SHA LALALA... =P
After receiving 'feedbacks' that my blog only contains songs, I really feel I should write something, haha... Actually I have many things going on in my life, probably too many things that I don't have much time for blogging.
Today is a Sunday, a rest day for me. However, I have a little sniff here and there. But no problem, will recover soon.
Yesterday I was serving Charile Arena 2, which was in the centre where all the pastors were sitting in the front row. I have served there before, but it was rather challenging yesterday, as I noticed 1 empty seat over at row 3 after everyone had settled down at their seats. However before offering time, that seat was filled. Then when I came back after placing the offering buckets at logistics, I noticed row 4 first seat was empty! Well, that seat was also filled in the end. It was because in my zone there were 3 ushers sisters squeezing in another row and one of them (who is a zone ic) noticed that empty seat and went to fill it. I really want to thank God for this because I remembered I had said a prayer that I had lifted up my zone to His hand. He is faithful indeed and the whole zone was filled. Hallelujah!
Yesterday I was also 'set free'. I was previously rather upset with myself due to certain things happening in my life. There was a point of time I felt my life was going on like a life cycle: I have to work very hard and I have to study very hard for my upcoming exams. My schedule for every week revolved with all this preparation all the time and I had ended up really physically tired. And it could be due to all this that I felt I could have done better for other things and this had caused me to feel less confident and probably more weary, which would definitely become a hindrance to my walk with God if it went on. I knew it could be that I had been using my strength all the while.
Many times I cried before God and asked for His help. I felt He had used Rev Ulf to speak to me during yesterday's service. I heard Rev Ulf said something like 'There is someone who has guilt in him. You have repented and the Lord wants to say to you that you are forgiven'.
With just these two sentences God had totally released me! He had released me from a burden which I had been carrying on my shoulders, so heavy that it had weighed me down spiritually like an old lady with a serious hunchback. I was really ministered to at that moment and I just kept praising God. I felt refreshed and recharged once again by His Almighty presence. Praise the Lord!
I felt the greatest killer to our self-esteem is our mind. The moment we feel we are limited to what we can do, we will 'help ourselves to limit' our future successes and accomplishments. On the contrary, when we are bold and confident, success is always with us. We can gain daily victories and even when problem arises (which definitely will in one way or another), we can face it with faith and be a problem-solver!
There will be times when we would feel discouraged or lost in the situation that we are going through. But thank God for His faithfulness, He is forever our refuge, for He says in His word that 'If we are faithless, He remains faithful; He cannot deny Himself.' (2 Tim 2:13).' Therefore don't turn away from Him, turn to Him. He will help you.
Sunday, November 12, 2006